onyxandjade

Why do we suffer this world so much if we hate it? What in us forces us to go on? Is the answer deep within?

We hate what is different... what is not seemingly normal. Making it hell or curious for that subject of abnormality. The problem is, what is not normal for us IS for someone else.

We continue on in this close minded world for the sake that we live within a blink of an eye compared to the rest of the cosmos... trying to savior each minute, each second so we can leave our mark on the world. It is inbred to want to continue on... the reason while so, clear is far from so many, and perhaps those are the ones to be pitied... or hated the most.

Take my hand just to be my love

These wings won't learn to rise
in the pillar of wicked life beneath the sky
Broken, blind and you are paralyzed
You belong to the moon believe they'll be denied

Take my hand just to be my love
The time has come to rise above
The angel now has broken wings
There's something to obtain

Take my hand just to be my love
The time has come to rise above
The angel now has broken wings
There's something to obtain

One day the sun just went away
You're shivering in the dark
Can't you feel its coming closer every time?
Now the Mentor is calling you
Can't you see the flames beyond your fading life

Take my hand just to be my love
Be my love just to be the one!

Take my hand just to be my love
The time has come to rise above
The angel now has broken wings
There's something to obtain

Take my hand just to be my love
The time has come to rise above
The angel now has broken wings
There's something to obtain

Take my hand just to be my love
The time has come to rise above
The angel now has broken wings
There's something to obtain

One day the sun just went away

~Gothminister "Angel"

Yeah, it's got the same title as the others, but since this thing is only read by 2 people, who cares? I'll say what I really want to now!


The fair share: I know he has to have me drive a stick shift so customers can get their cars. That way I don't have to call someone from another valet to move it. Our entire department is under pressure, and is grossly under staffed. I did say I was trying to learn when I was hired.

The bitch side: What the hell? He goes almost a year there and suddenly he's going to fire me because it dawns on him that I still can't do nothing more than move the stick shifts up? Sorry if I don't want to have an accident with one. I mean we have two dangerous turns we have to make. Besides a week and a half? How the hell can anyone unless they know someone with a stick learn to drive one in a week? Complete nutter, I tell you! I told him before I can't find a car to learn to drive one with. His response is, "I don't know what to tell you to do." Well, if you have no solution then don't present a stupid problem like this. Bill claims I should talk to him tomorrow to appeal his time period at least, and just use customer cars to get an idea. Fine. But am I talking to him tomorrow? No. I'm still too worked up to even want to be in the same room with him. Personally, I think he wants to fire me. Why? I don't know. I just know he's special that way and likes to fire people.

What am I going to do: No flipping idea. There's 3 scenarios here. I somehow, someway learn to drive a stick by Feb 1st, I somehow in a week's time transfer inside. Those two will require God's intervention I'm telling you. The third I'm fired over something this ridiculous. I've never been fired from a job before, and in this economy it's hard to find anything in a matter of time to be helpful to your family's debts.

Anyway... I have 10 days. I deserve a fair chance and a fair share of seeing what I can do if given the opportunity. But then he has a fair point in doing it, and time is honestly on his side.

So, in the end, I guess we'll just see what happens.

My cat is sick.

And the girl is back.

It's days like today that I wish I still worked at Calltech. It reached an all time high of 11° today. Tomorrow promises to be even more fun - 7°. The windchill made it -20°.

The other reason is because I could get the time off for the BLOOD tour in 2 weeks. Here... screw that idea. Not that I could go anyway since I don't have the money to travel anywhere. Oh well. So, long BLOOD.

The kid is coming home tomorrow. I think I'm going to go to the mall. Let her figure out how things work by herself. Never met a girl who doesn't know how to mop a floor or clean a bathroom properly.

Anyway, this entry was all procrastination. I need to work on Spirits Love Score's last chapter. But I'm so sleepy. -_- I want to go to the cemetery to take pics of it all covered in snow. But first things first. Buy wintery stuff so I can survive this job.

I have a semi-new story idea that I've almost committed to writing. Still committing to it.

Because staff cuts in most companies equals eventual close down, I have made this journal since LJ may go bye bye in a few years. All posts on this journal will remain public.

Consider this a partner journal to my personal journal on LJ. My other IJ will serve as a journal for semi-private posting. Since I don't feel like talking really I'll go into detail some other time.